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I'm on day--13 and I've been doing very well up to today. But today I'm just irritated and angry that I can't enjoy food. Been arguing with my wife and she doesn't deserve the anger that I have inside. I warned her at the start that emotionally I could be up and down and man was I right. This is my first down. I could sit here and pour out my heart to you, like you wouldn't believe.

 Last night was easier and I was at a dinner with 200 people where I simply refused to eat and had my plate wrapped up which I'm serving my wife tonight. So irritated.

Few days ago, I passed a tapeworm. Which made me infuriated. My mother told me as a young child, jokingly, that I had a tapeworm because I could eat large quantities and not gain weight. Well, she was right, and I probably had that worm for 20 years or so. I won't give up until I have none left, and hope that was the source of my intestinal issues. My urine is still dark yellow, as if I'm cleaning and I've learned maybe 200 recipes for when I come off fast.  Dreamed about food last night. Burgers, I think I will start using the technique to really hone my visualization skills.

Energetically, I get exhausted quickly, just feeling drained. I can also, physically feel the energy being utilized from my tissues and the healing process. The body is so amazing. Incredible actually. That's all for now.

Beat the urge

SO, let me tell you the situation and how I beat my urge to quit the fast.
I have been invited to a major dinner event with my wife. (Just my luck huh.) And EVERYONE I need to be there for my new business will be there. SO I figured I didn't want to be rude and not eat. So I've been struggling back and forth because if I didn't break the fast today I won't be able to eat in time for the event anyways. So after some serious thinking and praying I decided not to break my fast. To me, this was the third  temptation by the devil analogous to Jesus. "All this could be yours! If you 'cast yourself down' " Ah naw, I'm good. Get behind me adversary. You see, the FALLING of Jesus from the spiritual pinnacle back to the state of SAGE would have been achieved by eating. Anyone who has fasted KNOWS, that eating is the devil. LOL. Ok not exactly, it's almost as if you are feeding a "food demon". The USA has done a great job of feeding these "Food Demons" with corporations that help make us sick after years of bad eating. Ironically, in other countries, that is not the case. With healthy food in places like Egypt (Falafel), or Japan etc etc! Let's be honest, we have an obesity problem, which is leading to heart disease, which is the leading cause of death in the USA. Ironically, fasting, eating right (non-gmo,less dairy etc) would help tremendously.

Now I know what you are thinking. "But BRO, didn't Jesus say it matters not what goes IN the mouth, but what goes OUT!" Yeah, but let's look at the difference of then and now. THEN, all food was organic. You could walk in a field and eat am ear of corn straight- no pesticides or gmo issues to worry about. So yea, it mattered not what went in- IT WAS ALL HEALTHY. Boy oh BOY,how has that changed!

I feel good about my decision. Besides, I could live with loosing the biz deal because I didn't eat, but couldn't live with myself if I loose the deal because I did! I will get the other dinner wrapped up to go, and take it home for my wife.

Day 8 was incredible

SO! Day 8 was yesterday and was the sabbath. I kept it almost perfectly (I did take out the trash :-( ) But I had my first major spiritual breakthrough. People say "God spoke to me" and for the first time I can say, I felt that. It was strange yet invigorating. Sooooo many things came to light immediately and I almost wanted to just stop eating because I felt like it was over. I'd been given the answers I was seeking, but lo' I'm going to see this to the end. I still have some "demons to cast out". For those reading who are thinking about possibly doing a fast, it won't be easy, but YOU SHOULD. Period.Got some real good rest today. Wild dreams, I bought one of those feminine eye cover things= more darkness= which has been creating more Melatonin in my mind= better more vivid dreams. Try it. Read the Torah/Bible closely Chapter 30, deep how the Children of Jacob (including Dinah) spell a sentence. Deep really. We are the sheep. Um, still having mental hunger but not much physically. OH, I wanted to add that the one thing I am tasting, water, was become more acute. I can taste the differences between the "spring" water and the tap water (and my tap water is rather good I live in the boonies and it's fresh from an aquifer). I can only imagine what the response to food will be like. I planned the first holy day of this next year (following the Hebrew Calendar). That is, PESACH! Or passover/easter. Now, let me say I will be doing the holiday according to the outline in the Torah- not according to the Traditions set my the Jews. Sorry guys I'm ole' school. Either way, I'm very excited and I've already learned how good for you lamb, red wine (in moderation) and whole grain bread is to a healthful diet! God knows what he is doing! So I'd suggest you all do this as well. I love you and wish blessings upon you and yours.