DAY 50!!!!

Ok, so I MADE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It wasn't easy, I was at 100 pds on day 40 barely able to walk DOWN steps. It was incredible. 100pds (i'm 5'10) was my balance weight. I could loose no more weight. The last few to 40 seemed to be very difficult, making me believe my body had begun to utilize muscle as an energy source.

I broke my fast on the sabbath with a wonderful WATERMELON! I would suggest this as the fruit of choice of any long term faster as it is 90% water and chock full of vitamins. Yes, it was expensive. But , it tasted like ambrosia. no really. I ate the whole thing in 1 day, without pulp, and also about 6 grapefruit sans-pulp as well.+

Within a day, I had made a "broth" with tons of vegetables, and juiced some goodies (Kale, Carrots, Apples, Pears, Grapes) into just perfect juices for consumption. I was gaining back weight at about 2.5 pds a day...
Right now i'm about 120. They say you shouldn't eat once the hunger comes upon you, and sorry I don't agree. I lost 40 pds, so I ATE. I had lots of broth and juiced fruits, and by day 3, I had my first bit of "solid food" which I chewed until it was mush anyways.

Before I get into the food, and my personal miracle....let me tell you about BLISS.

IF Buddha and Jesus took a few days after their fast to just chillout, they were in BLISS, and I've experienced it. It's the most amazing euphoric feeling, one that I couldn't describe to you even if I wanted to. If for no other reason, That's why you should fast. The feeling would last for hours, where I'd find myself sitting in silence smiling. Once I started eating, which is a necessity, it slowly dwindled, but I realized I can call upon it rather easily, with a mini fast- and some quiet meditation. Therefore, I've decided to do this fast again, but maybe next time, I would like to do it in a secluded setting, or with others who are working towards a spiritual goal. Finally, the next time I want to alter my diet completely which at the current time is not possible.  So with that said, back to food.

MY MIRACLE follows. I'm am allergy person. You know, the guy who needs a gluten free, no peanut/tree nut/ no bananas, no raspberries etc...etc... Yeah, well, near the end of my fast as I was still cooking for my wife (yes I fasted all the way while cooking for my wife nearly every day) I smelled some Peanut Butter- something I knew I was very allergic to. I was told it was a genetic thing, my father is highly allergic as well. Well, On day 44, I tried something RADICAL. A Peanut Butter Jelly sandwich. I ate the whole thing, WITHOUT REACTION. Yes, I realized at that moment, I am healed of ALL my allergies, remember I was also having gluten issues which you can read in the start of this blog, but the bread on my PBJ (which was homemade- but still contained gluten) also gave me no reaction. Yes, cured I am.

So for all you allergy people, screw what western medicine tells you, you can be cured.

Other things I've noticed. My skin is super sensitive. I had to change my soap, and toothpaste (which I did early on in the fast) and I now was dishes in gloves. Dermasil lotion broke my hands out, and I now use shea butter. All natural.

Yogurt HELPED. Yes, Chobani. This was around day 43. I felt as though I needed it to make sure I had to good bacteria and it helped me alot. Everything runs like a whistle, in out quick. Chobani has been helpful in insuring that stays the case. I stocked my fridge with it on day 49.

Ganoderma infused coffee has been good for the last few ailments my body has been fighting with, and I'm happy I found it as well. I don't drink coffee often, but I've enjoyed this immensely.

Been to two buffets and just really enjoyed all the food. I've made an appointment with a Chinese doctor for acupuncture to make sure my intestinal issues are fixed, permanently.  This will be the final tune-up before I do this fast again around the same time next year, and I now know what to expect.

Thanks for reading this blog, and I apologize that I didn't update each day. Things got really personal there during the last 20 days, including loosing my cell service and having to switch, then having to order all new parts for my laptop. So I was communicationless, which God wanted so that it was HIM AND I. Makes perfect sense to me. So, one love to you, and BARUCHKA!

Emotional Wreck

I think I now know what it feels like to have PMS. I'm an emotional wreck, argued all day, screaming etc. Lost my voice. Just irritated, and my wife isn't in a perfect state of mind either due to work, so that doesn't help. Overworked underpaid is always the case right? Decided to listen to some classical to calm me down and Canon in D had me in full blown tears. Yeah- I'm right there. Had to let you know.

WARNING GRAPHIC POST

I'm on day--13 and I've been doing very well up to today. But today I'm just irritated and angry that I can't enjoy food. Been arguing with my wife and she doesn't deserve the anger that I have inside. I warned her at the start that emotionally I could be up and down and man was I right. This is my first down. I could sit here and pour out my heart to you, like you wouldn't believe.

 Last night was easier and I was at a dinner with 200 people where I simply refused to eat and had my plate wrapped up which I'm serving my wife tonight. So irritated.

Few days ago, I passed a tapeworm. Which made me infuriated. My mother told me as a young child, jokingly, that I had a tapeworm because I could eat large quantities and not gain weight. Well, she was right, and I probably had that worm for 20 years or so. I won't give up until I have none left, and hope that was the source of my intestinal issues. My urine is still dark yellow, as if I'm cleaning and I've learned maybe 200 recipes for when I come off fast.  Dreamed about food last night. Burgers, I think I will start using the technique to really hone my visualization skills.

Energetically, I get exhausted quickly, just feeling drained. I can also, physically feel the energy being utilized from my tissues and the healing process. The body is so amazing. Incredible actually. That's all for now.

Beat the urge

SO, let me tell you the situation and how I beat my urge to quit the fast.
I have been invited to a major dinner event with my wife. (Just my luck huh.) And EVERYONE I need to be there for my new business will be there. SO I figured I didn't want to be rude and not eat. So I've been struggling back and forth because if I didn't break the fast today I won't be able to eat in time for the event anyways. So after some serious thinking and praying I decided not to break my fast. To me, this was the third  temptation by the devil analogous to Jesus. "All this could be yours! If you 'cast yourself down' " Ah naw, I'm good. Get behind me adversary. You see, the FALLING of Jesus from the spiritual pinnacle back to the state of SAGE would have been achieved by eating. Anyone who has fasted KNOWS, that eating is the devil. LOL. Ok not exactly, it's almost as if you are feeding a "food demon". The USA has done a great job of feeding these "Food Demons" with corporations that help make us sick after years of bad eating. Ironically, in other countries, that is not the case. With healthy food in places like Egypt (Falafel), or Japan etc etc! Let's be honest, we have an obesity problem, which is leading to heart disease, which is the leading cause of death in the USA. Ironically, fasting, eating right (non-gmo,less dairy etc) would help tremendously.

Now I know what you are thinking. "But BRO, didn't Jesus say it matters not what goes IN the mouth, but what goes OUT!" Yeah, but let's look at the difference of then and now. THEN, all food was organic. You could walk in a field and eat am ear of corn straight- no pesticides or gmo issues to worry about. So yea, it mattered not what went in- IT WAS ALL HEALTHY. Boy oh BOY,how has that changed!

I feel good about my decision. Besides, I could live with loosing the biz deal because I didn't eat, but couldn't live with myself if I loose the deal because I did! I will get the other dinner wrapped up to go, and take it home for my wife.

Day 8 was incredible

SO! Day 8 was yesterday and was the sabbath. I kept it almost perfectly (I did take out the trash :-( ) But I had my first major spiritual breakthrough. People say "God spoke to me" and for the first time I can say, I felt that. It was strange yet invigorating. Sooooo many things came to light immediately and I almost wanted to just stop eating because I felt like it was over. I'd been given the answers I was seeking, but lo' I'm going to see this to the end. I still have some "demons to cast out". For those reading who are thinking about possibly doing a fast, it won't be easy, but YOU SHOULD. Period.Got some real good rest today. Wild dreams, I bought one of those feminine eye cover things= more darkness= which has been creating more Melatonin in my mind= better more vivid dreams. Try it. Read the Torah/Bible closely Chapter 30, deep how the Children of Jacob (including Dinah) spell a sentence. Deep really. We are the sheep. Um, still having mental hunger but not much physically. OH, I wanted to add that the one thing I am tasting, water, was become more acute. I can taste the differences between the "spring" water and the tap water (and my tap water is rather good I live in the boonies and it's fresh from an aquifer). I can only imagine what the response to food will be like. I planned the first holy day of this next year (following the Hebrew Calendar). That is, PESACH! Or passover/easter. Now, let me say I will be doing the holiday according to the outline in the Torah- not according to the Traditions set my the Jews. Sorry guys I'm ole' school. Either way, I'm very excited and I've already learned how good for you lamb, red wine (in moderation) and whole grain bread is to a healthful diet! God knows what he is doing! So I'd suggest you all do this as well. I love you and wish blessings upon you and yours.

LOOK AT MY HOROSCOPE FOR TODAY AND THE NEXT FEW MONTHS: Courtesy of ASTRO.com:
".... Now you will question whether you are doing what you should with your life. The temptation is to decide that you are not, and to give up. Others may try to convince you that you are on the wrong course and give you very demoralizing advice. Of course, you may in fact be wrong in some area, and there you should change course. But you must avoid the tendency to cave in." <----- I couldn't have said it better myself. #stayfocused