DAY 50!!!!

Ok, so I MADE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It wasn't easy, I was at 100 pds on day 40 barely able to walk DOWN steps. It was incredible. 100pds (i'm 5'10) was my balance weight. I could loose no more weight. The last few to 40 seemed to be very difficult, making me believe my body had begun to utilize muscle as an energy source.

I broke my fast on the sabbath with a wonderful WATERMELON! I would suggest this as the fruit of choice of any long term faster as it is 90% water and chock full of vitamins. Yes, it was expensive. But , it tasted like ambrosia. no really. I ate the whole thing in 1 day, without pulp, and also about 6 grapefruit sans-pulp as well.+

Within a day, I had made a "broth" with tons of vegetables, and juiced some goodies (Kale, Carrots, Apples, Pears, Grapes) into just perfect juices for consumption. I was gaining back weight at about 2.5 pds a day...
Right now i'm about 120. They say you shouldn't eat once the hunger comes upon you, and sorry I don't agree. I lost 40 pds, so I ATE. I had lots of broth and juiced fruits, and by day 3, I had my first bit of "solid food" which I chewed until it was mush anyways.

Before I get into the food, and my personal miracle....let me tell you about BLISS.

IF Buddha and Jesus took a few days after their fast to just chillout, they were in BLISS, and I've experienced it. It's the most amazing euphoric feeling, one that I couldn't describe to you even if I wanted to. If for no other reason, That's why you should fast. The feeling would last for hours, where I'd find myself sitting in silence smiling. Once I started eating, which is a necessity, it slowly dwindled, but I realized I can call upon it rather easily, with a mini fast- and some quiet meditation. Therefore, I've decided to do this fast again, but maybe next time, I would like to do it in a secluded setting, or with others who are working towards a spiritual goal. Finally, the next time I want to alter my diet completely which at the current time is not possible.  So with that said, back to food.

MY MIRACLE follows. I'm am allergy person. You know, the guy who needs a gluten free, no peanut/tree nut/ no bananas, no raspberries etc...etc... Yeah, well, near the end of my fast as I was still cooking for my wife (yes I fasted all the way while cooking for my wife nearly every day) I smelled some Peanut Butter- something I knew I was very allergic to. I was told it was a genetic thing, my father is highly allergic as well. Well, On day 44, I tried something RADICAL. A Peanut Butter Jelly sandwich. I ate the whole thing, WITHOUT REACTION. Yes, I realized at that moment, I am healed of ALL my allergies, remember I was also having gluten issues which you can read in the start of this blog, but the bread on my PBJ (which was homemade- but still contained gluten) also gave me no reaction. Yes, cured I am.

So for all you allergy people, screw what western medicine tells you, you can be cured.

Other things I've noticed. My skin is super sensitive. I had to change my soap, and toothpaste (which I did early on in the fast) and I now was dishes in gloves. Dermasil lotion broke my hands out, and I now use shea butter. All natural.

Yogurt HELPED. Yes, Chobani. This was around day 43. I felt as though I needed it to make sure I had to good bacteria and it helped me alot. Everything runs like a whistle, in out quick. Chobani has been helpful in insuring that stays the case. I stocked my fridge with it on day 49.

Ganoderma infused coffee has been good for the last few ailments my body has been fighting with, and I'm happy I found it as well. I don't drink coffee often, but I've enjoyed this immensely.

Been to two buffets and just really enjoyed all the food. I've made an appointment with a Chinese doctor for acupuncture to make sure my intestinal issues are fixed, permanently.  This will be the final tune-up before I do this fast again around the same time next year, and I now know what to expect.

Thanks for reading this blog, and I apologize that I didn't update each day. Things got really personal there during the last 20 days, including loosing my cell service and having to switch, then having to order all new parts for my laptop. So I was communicationless, which God wanted so that it was HIM AND I. Makes perfect sense to me. So, one love to you, and BARUCHKA!

DAY 17

SO,
I've made it to day 17. Just water. Let's talk about somethings that have happened so far.

1. Enemas are important. Although I've had only 1 natural bowel movement in the last, oh, 10 days...the enemas have shown that I still have plenty of GUNK inside my intestines. Really, it's incredible. Makes you think about people who have never fasted, never taken the time to clean out their insides. Dude, you're clogging yourself.
2. No hunger. None. Zero. Only mental deciding when I eat again, what I will eat again. Let this be inspiration. After day 7-9, it's not as hard.
3. Spiritual - Have been so trapped in business lately I haven't been as spiritual as I would have liked lately. Did get some time to read the Torah, and Tanakh and look about how "your pot should be clean". Yeah, that's the body dude(pun intended for you Hebrew speakers.)
4. The world fades away- Other than my personal work, I really have lost interest in news, the doomsday ppl, wars, etc. I'm just kinda, mellow. Waiting for it to be over. Thinking. Praying. 
5. Prayers are stronger- My prayers feel stronger. I can't explain why, probably something to do with my third eye.
6. Tongue- You know how people say your tongue get's all nasty? Well that was very true early on. Read my posts about how water is so nasty. But now, that's changed...for the better! It's weird, not my tongue and mouth are SWEET. Constantly sweet. Like it's sweet bacteria. I still brush my teeth and tongue, but in the middle between when I'm not, it's just a sweet--- taste in my mouth. Kinda like a mix between a mild peppermint and..uh...well, sugar. Funny, YOGI's say that when you do yoga(union) or Levi in Hebrew, this is the result. That you skin and tongue will emit sweetness. Manna maybe?
7. Lost Weight- A few days ago my wife hugs me like- WOW you've lost weight. Yeah. Lots, at least 10 pds. Now I didn't loose that through the bowels. Not that much. Nor did I sweat it out, I burnt it.
8. Sauna- I sauna with Epson salt every other day. Here's how. I turn the heat in my house high, bring in a small heater to high, and draw a bath of HOT water. By the time 10 min has passed, I'm sweating like a mad man. It's been great. Love the Epson Salt. 
9. Tantric Yoga Easier- Google it.
10. No desire for Sex- With that said, my desire for sex has decreased dramatically. Bye bye Porn. Even the sexy ads on site are like "eh". I've learn to admire beauty in everything. Especially plants. In fact...
11. The Plants- Me and plants have become closer. I've grown a new found respect for them, mainly because I want to eat them. LOL. But no really, I talk to them, and maybe only in my head they respond. They want to be enjoyed. They are the messengers of light/color, and in Hebrew messenger=angel. Just something to think about. 

Ok. Now, I completed a new meal plan and have spending alot of time learning cool recipes for when this is over. I can't wait for Pesach and the months leading up to it.

Hi to all my readers, and don't be shy. Introduce yourself. Ask questions. I'm here for you. I figured, since I can't tell anyone I'm fasting, the least I can do is talk about it anonymously.

You can do it, for those fasting with me. You can do it. 

The Real Meaning of The Sabbath-Day 15

So, Today is the Sabbath. I subscribe to the ancient Hebrew Calendar and I follow the moon cycles which I'm sure is how my lineage did it. It was also followed in Meso America in Mayan Territory in the 13 Moon Calendar. Makes life easier really. Anyways, today I said no work. And of course, work flies from nowhere. Tons of mail that MUST be opened. Emails for that deal I've been working on, and the possibility that I may have to stop my fast to land this deal and become a Millionaire. So what do I do? Not respond? Not eat for a quick coffee break with a major business associate? SO, I'm driving. Thinking to myself, ok God I'm going to end the fast on day 22, and lock down the deal... and it shuts off. Just OFF. Completely. All the lights come on. This has never happened before, and I told my wife, after I shut off the car and restarted it, that the problem was a simple breaker that is fine. She says--- YOU ALWAYS PUT BUSINESS BEFORE GOD NOT THIS TIME. PUT GOD FIRST!!! And I have to agree. I won't end this fast even for the deal- if it means not eating- so be it. I have to begin to fully put my trust in GOD.

Oh, and it's Valentines Day. Now, duh I don't celebrate it, but my wife is all for it. So- I got her a GIANT card, fixed her breakfast, lunch and dinner- roses- candy etc etc. So let me say, that despite cooking throughout my entire fast, I am not hungry. Tired, yes. Dehydrated- sure am. Hungry? Not a bit. My wife is astonished. "Aren't you hungry?" Nope, I explained to her how my body is using it's energy stored and how ingenious the human body is. Truly a masterful work of art. NOW, that isn't to say that cooking during a 40 day fast is any easier- it isn't.

After this post, I'm digging back into scripture. Noting how the pots must be clean to be filled. Clean your pot reader...clean your pot.

Emotional Wreck

I think I now know what it feels like to have PMS. I'm an emotional wreck, argued all day, screaming etc. Lost my voice. Just irritated, and my wife isn't in a perfect state of mind either due to work, so that doesn't help. Overworked underpaid is always the case right? Decided to listen to some classical to calm me down and Canon in D had me in full blown tears. Yeah- I'm right there. Had to let you know.

WARNING GRAPHIC POST

I'm on day--13 and I've been doing very well up to today. But today I'm just irritated and angry that I can't enjoy food. Been arguing with my wife and she doesn't deserve the anger that I have inside. I warned her at the start that emotionally I could be up and down and man was I right. This is my first down. I could sit here and pour out my heart to you, like you wouldn't believe.

 Last night was easier and I was at a dinner with 200 people where I simply refused to eat and had my plate wrapped up which I'm serving my wife tonight. So irritated.

Few days ago, I passed a tapeworm. Which made me infuriated. My mother told me as a young child, jokingly, that I had a tapeworm because I could eat large quantities and not gain weight. Well, she was right, and I probably had that worm for 20 years or so. I won't give up until I have none left, and hope that was the source of my intestinal issues. My urine is still dark yellow, as if I'm cleaning and I've learned maybe 200 recipes for when I come off fast.  Dreamed about food last night. Burgers, I think I will start using the technique to really hone my visualization skills.

Energetically, I get exhausted quickly, just feeling drained. I can also, physically feel the energy being utilized from my tissues and the healing process. The body is so amazing. Incredible actually. That's all for now.

Passover and prices on other days

Checking up on passover meal pricing now that I know what I must buy. Good buns expensive, rather stick with bread. Hard to get good seafood up here. Sigh.

Day 9 morning. Irritated because all water tastes HORRIBLE. I've tried many brands. Only ICELAND ph 8.8 is good. And expensive. *sigh*